Competition..?

just wanted to write about how it really sucks to compete these days.

i mean. EVERYONE is so good.

Just got back from Fusion XI tonight, and was just thinking how i feel like everyone was equally good.

who's to say who's better than that other team that has that completely different style. to even be competing in the same general category is so subjective, and i feel like its unfair. i mean, im not discrediting the judges. they're all legitimately chosen people of course. but they're seriously just five individuals who are all looking for different (maybe the same) things, and it just sucks for those teams that aren't really in their favor. hip hop these days is so amazing in every way that its so hard to just..JUDGE. i mean why judge anyway? everyone should just showcase, and life would be much easier. haha competitors won't be so nervous, people won't be offended by placings, and everyone would be happy. hahah i dont know, i just feel so bad for the teams that didnt place that were EQUALLY great as teams that did place. placings just placing right? haha maybe im just not so competitive anymore and i just dont wanna see all this unnecessary tension. haha

anyway, im rambling now.

GOOD JOB TONIGHT to the teams that competed and showcased their art. everyone was dope! studio429/choreo cookies really reminded me of whats so great about dancing--thanks for that! and im sorry KM and CG for missing you guys.. I didn't make it in time!

spring quarter (and hopefully my last quarter at UCI) starts tomorrow! WOOO

lets do this

Moving On

I feel really content right now with my circumstances, and what's given to me.

I feel like I'm moving on with my life, even though I haven't physically moved on from UCI, I feel like I'm taking the first step towards being able to leave UCI with nothing tying me down. For the past few years I was so in love with KM and SPOP that I feel like I was starting to get lost in it. Of course, the two were the organizations/programs that really built who I am today, but I'm glad that as I'm graduating I'm able to put these things behind me and use them to move onto the next steps in my life. Whatever it may be.

Choosing not to apply for SPOP and not re-auditioning have been very liberating actually. and free, because I cared so much about both when I was in it, that its easier to let go now that I gave so much. I feel like I'm getting a breath of fresh air as I'm finishing up school (just got done with my hardest quarter at UCI), doing things towards my career like internships, taking classes finally (outside of KM), starting KM Legacy, doing things like barebones and simply finding things that I couldn't do before when I was so buried in the two things that consumed my life. I'm excited to live up my last quarter at UCI (hopefully my last haha) and dance again.

Random post, just thought I'd write it here.

2010 is definitely giving me some new answers and questions that I'm excited about.

For once, I really have no idea what's coming. and that feeling to me is really exciting.